Friday, January 15, 2010

Kevin: Origin of unravel

The main character that is the driving force behind my little project is a character named Kevin.  Kevin turns out to be a bit of a piece of work.  Short tempered, untrusting, angry and unpredictable.  He is by far my greatest challenge of this story.  Getting him figured is the key to getting his story told.  Get to know a bit about him, won't you?

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Kevin was the kind of kid growing up that may have well been considered an only child.  He had a sister seven years his elder, but they were never very close.  A seven year difference was just enough to keep them separated in school.  And she was always too old to play G.I. Joes with him.  She had a car when we wanted to ride bikes.  She wanted to go on dates with boys when he wanted to see the cartoon movies at the theater.  It's not that Samantha didn't love him.  She did.  But when you're a cheerleader and have popular friends in school who always want to hang out, have sleep overs, go to basketball games and go cruising around, your little brother that's seven years younger than you isn't as appealing.  So once she graduated high school and moved away to college, he officially became that only child he always felt like he was.

His parents didn't do much to help him feel better about things either.  His mom was a stay at home mom.  If there were a modern day June Cleaver, she'd be it.  She didn't do much but keep a clean house, made delicious meals, provided everyone with clean clothes and primarily kept to herself.  She didn't play much with the kids.  She spent so much time taking care of the meals, house and laundry that when she finally had some down time, she was selfish with it.  She often just sat and read her magazines and caught up on her soaps she recorded during the day on a free tv when one became available in the house.  Which was rare.  Because between Kevin playing his Nintendo on one tv, the other was being occupied by his father, Richard.

Richard was about the same age as Kevin's mother.  Except that age seemed to have treated him a bit more harsh.  He was a rugged man with very callused hands. He had a sandpaper face full of wrinkles.  Always wearing blue jeans and a pocketed shirt with a pack of cigarettes always tucked in them.  He smelled of a combination of cigarette smoke and motor oil. The man spent more time working on cars in his garage than he did working on his relationship with his family.  He was a gruff man who wanted things orderly and quiet around him.  He expected dinner at a certain time, a hot pot of coffee at a moment's notice, deathly still quietness around him when he slept, and for the most part to be left alone with life's problems and issues that didn't concern him.  He often had nothing to do with his family, often acting as if he was burdened, not blessed, by them.  Kevin liked the idea of not having to deal with him.  He was never much a big fan of his father and sort of liked it that he didn't have to deal or acknowledge him very much.

Kevin often played by himself as a kid.  He had a very creative imagination.  He had to.  He would often conversate with himself and his toys.  Sometimes it looked as if he was talking to imaginary friends.  His mother didn't think much of the fact that he befriended his toys in such away.  She just assumed it was less maintenance from her to keep him occupied.  She had enough to worry about with making sure that there were always pots of hot coffee, deathly still silence and meals ready.  Kevin's best friend and his only family seemed to be himself.  And frankly, he rather liked it that way.

Sunday, January 10, 2010

Getting back to Falling Down - The beginning to the end

Back in college I had a creative writing class. I loved that class. Every week was a different writing topic. Poem assignments, brainstorm bubbles, free write collections. But one week's challenge was my favorite. One week' assignment has stuck with me. Our project that week was to write a short story. But not just any short story. We had to write an ending. How does one write and ending to a story that has never existed?

I jostled this around for the first two days. I would start something then throw it away. I would run with another just to have it go no where. I had no idea how I was going to tackle this one. Then out of no where, here comes these characters. Not a story, characters. Two of them. I just started writing. I had no idea where these two new friends of mine were going to go or what they were going to be up to. I was just along for the ride. They started out in a bar, went for a walk and stopped at a bridge. And by the time this story found its ending point, so had one of the characters. One of my two new friends didn't make it out of the story alive.  And so my short story ending, Falling Down, was born.

I got an A on that project that week. The assignment was over. But these two new guys were not. Have you ever heard a writer or author talk about their craft? When they write a book, they say that these characters 'lived' inside of them begging to come out. I can safely say I know exactly what they mean now.  They actually pop up in your head.  Their stories go back and forth.  Possibilites.  HOW did they get in that bar to begin with?  Why DOES the one die at the end?  Did these two guys have girlfriends?  How did they meet?  These to characters have been swirling around 'wanting out' for some time now. They just seemed incomplete. I had wrote an ending to a story that had no beginning or middle. I wrote about the death of a character that was never complete to begin with. They wanted their beginning. They wanted their story. I just had no idea what it was. There were different incarnations of their story. At one point it was a screenplay. Then it went to a huge outline project. Then those outlines moved to summations written on index cards. Their story is still untold.

They don't give up. They're still in there. Wanting out. I can't say I blame hem. I'd be frustrated with me, too. I want to finish this story. Well, I guess want to start their story. With all the incarnations and outlines that I've done to this story, I know right where I want to take them. It's all laid out. It just needs done. It needs written. This, I guess, would be my New Years Resolution. Everyone has asked me this year what my resolution is. And I guess, a good start would be giving those two relentless characters a good start. Here's to hoping I don't trip again at Falling Down.

First of what I'm attempting to be many...



Well, this being my first blog posting, I figured I'd cover a few bases to start things off.

Why blog?  What the hell could I have to say that's worth while?  Hell, I don't know.  Between most of my useless and rambling tweets that most of you sure enough follow and my just as compelling status updates and photos on Facebook, you already pretty much know what I've been up to.  What could I possibly have left new to tell anyone?  Well, who knows, probably nothing.  But I guess this gives me a place to be more extensive, more elaborate, or more personal about the things going on with me or around me. 

I've always been a writer.  I've always been a creative person.  I've always like expressing myself in writings of thoughts, short stories, poems...whatever.  And since becoming and 'adult' and not having college classes require me to write my creative juices into short stories or poems, writing those things on my own doesn't really happen that often.  Maybe having this blog will let me get some of my creativity flowing again.  Get me thinking past the 140 character quips I post several times a day.

This could also help out one of my life long (well, if you consider since I've been in college "life long") ambitions was to finish a short story I wrote in a creative writing class.  (More on this story later)  But maybe doing a blog will help knock loose some of the dust in my head that has most certainly blocked some of those things that has kept me from finishing this project.  But again, more on this later...

I'm sure I'll get the 'holy crap, Tom's posting more stuff again' comments from the occasional coworker or friend. But then there are the friends and coworkers that will see what I am doing may actually help me get back to that person that I was in high school and college. Not that who I am now is someone I don't want to be, but that who I am now lacks that creative side that really defined my personality. With the daily grind of daily life, sometimes we forget to do those things or work on those things that really make us who we are. They could be hobbies you enjoy doing, books you enjoy reading, places you like visiting. For me, it's sitting down, taking time to myself and putting down on paper (or computer screen) all those ideas, images, and thoughts that beg to be creatively let out.

All in all, I need to get creative again.  I need to get back to tapping back into that part of me that I know is still in there.  I'm not saying that if I do, I'll be such a better person that I'll cure the worlds problems and be SuperTom.  But I bet that I'll be a bit less frustrated, clearer thinking, and get more enjoyment out of a life that quickly gets washed away with all the stresses of work and or day to day tasks and worries that make us forget the inner person we have living in all of us.  So what's the harm in that?  Right?